Posted by corafree on August 9, 2004, at 16:34:41
In reply to Re: SORRY TO JUMP IN - BUT HELP PLEASE?!, posted by Atticus on August 7, 2004, at 6:40:39
> Cora,
> Take it from someone who actually went through with a suicide attempt earlier this year, slashed his left wrist and forearm to tatters with a boxcutter, and ended up in a psych ward, please, please don't learn things the hard way like I did. Shadowplayers721 and shortelise are spot on with their advice. Walk into an ER, tell a crisis interventionist how you feel, and get stabilized (and safe) right away. I'm so glad now that I dialed 911 as I started to black out. My father is in total denial about my entire mental illness, but I was shocked by the support I received from my sibs, with whom I've had a pretty emotionally distant relationship. You would be amazed at the wonderful, totally unexpected surprises that life -- which can seem so unrelentingly brutal -- still holds for you. I've been to the edge of the abyss and jumped off, and it certainly wasn't the gentle passage into that good night I thought it would be. I remember so vividly telling my pdoc on the ward, "Just give me one good reason why I should want to see another sunrise." In the end, I discovered that deep down I wanted to see that sunrise a lot more than I believed or understood. I was placed in intensive outpatient therapy like you describe when I was released and helped by it incredibly. My social worker has just been so great. So hang on, hang on with all the strength you don't think you have but really do. AtticusTks! I mean to print your poem and put it in a place I can find it, when I need to remember the 'spot'. I am very depressed. No adjustment to my Effexor-XR dosage since April is a possible reason. Also I really don't have anything to take for heightened anxiety, especially as heightened as it was when I sent out the HELP message. I enjoy reading your posts. Are you writing? Lots of talented people here. I am humbled to be a small part of your lives. best wishes cf
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