Posted by Angela2 on June 4, 2004, at 20:02:59
My T is a hypocrit. She tells me I need to learn that sometimes I have to do things I don't want to do (referring to my not wanting to be in school), but then she tells me, I shouldn't participate in the things that make me uncomfortable and make me feel like I don't want to do them. Being one with social anxiety, I would like to break through my barrier and experience things, as uncomfortable as they may be. She was basically trying to tell me that I shouldn't go to the bible study I want to go to because it makes me uncomfortable.
I am tired of being told what I should and shouldn't do, and that my decisions are naive, because I am a person who can stand on her own two feet. I really want to prove that to my parents and to myself. Because I am tired of hearing her tell me confusing and conflicting things. She just doesn't understand social anxiety because she doesn't specialize in it. She really is a good therapist. She's supportive. But her advice on how to handle my social anxiety means nothing to me. The only thing we've accomplished is that I am struggling with my identity because of it. I'd like to see a CBT specialist, but I'm afraid I'll come out with no opinions and values of my own.
Thanks for listening.
Angela
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