Posted by DaisyM on May 19, 2004, at 14:11:48
In reply to Re: Therapist-permanence (long, windy, *sigh*), posted by Aphrodite on May 18, 2004, at 18:47:40
Thanks for that very thoughtful response. I'm not sure I've ever induced exercise in someone before! :)
I think you are right, I'm definately a type A and want timelines and milestones to pass. It is hard for me to "just" let anything happen. And when being this self-centered, I feel guilty about taking such a long time to keep focused on me.
I am anxious about talking about sex. But I was anxious and urgent before that. I keep trying to imagine how this conversation will go. I consider myself enlightened but then again, I'm not usually talking about me in that context. There is a part of me that thinks maybe this really is something I should struggle with on my own. There are limits on what I can bring to therapy, to ask him to help me with.
I like what your Therapist said about being able to tell if they were bored with you or disliked you. For me it is the seemingly never ending sadness. I sometimes feel like I'm living in a soap opera. At some point, he HAS to reject what feels like an assault on his positive energy. I think I'm ziggy...the guy with the cloud over his head. I don't want to make it rain in the consulting room too.
Thanks for what you said about my posts. Glad they aren't too long for you. I ramble sometimes.