Posted by B2chica on May 18, 2004, at 13:20:18
In reply to B2chica!! ... how did it go? (nm), posted by finelinebob on May 17, 2004, at 18:21:33
it was good and bad. You were there :)
it was bad cuz i still didn't quite talk about what i wanted to...however, it still went pretty good, i think.
I told him about this site, about what we talked about -which was good cuz i could at least get that out- i told him how you and your responses made me feel. And then i was able to tell him about my weekend (sunday was awful-mon. not good either but his appt was then.)
-and- i remember when i was in the hospital i had reached such a depression that there are several times i just completely zoned out-and i mean that literally, next thing i new like 1/2 hour went by and i just remembered everything getting fuzzy. Well i think that may have happened during yesterday's appt. I remember getting a little emotional about what we were talking about and i (as always) tried to suck it up and say i was "fine with that" then i remember looking at my pen in my notebook and everything got a little fuzzy, i then heard him calling my name and things got clear, i felt burning hot and i couldn't remember anything about what we were talking about- i had/still don't know what the conversations was so i just started to talk about what we did when i first came in- i also looked at my watch, i know quite a few minutes passed but i don't know how many cuz i didn't know what time it was before.
Right before i left, I told him that i stopped taking my AD. i know...i know- but that's a whole other discussion.
-anyway, then i went home, completely drained but feeling ok about the session. i slept for a few hours, and still felt good about the session. i think that's a good sign.
i didn't go straight home and SI.
I am SO grateful to you flb.
just can't THANK YOU enough!
oh, and thanks for the AIM info! i would have but i already left, though i wish i could have talked sunday (was out of town....BIG crappy day!) but it's over now, and i just have to worry about THIS week...right.
-flb, i think maybe you're good luck. I think i'll bring you again next week too if you don't mind ;^}