Posted by finelinebob on May 10, 2004, at 17:26:00
In reply to Doing better but scared..., posted by Pandabear on May 10, 2004, at 16:37:55
Feeling worse coming out of therapy? Lots of times!
But that is part of how you know it is worthwhile. You can get into those thoughts and memories that make you feel like you were hit by a ton of bricks, but not only are you doing so with someone who is going to support you -- something you didn't have the first, second, whatever time you experienced that before -- you also have someone who is going to work with you to unravel it, to get through it. You may have a tendency or desire to get away from those feelings as fast as you can, but my therapist has taught me how to hold onto those feelings and explore them, even (or especially) after the session is over. I'm in a different place than when I first had those experiences -- I survived them, I know I can survive them again PLUS I've got the skills and support to kick them into submission this time around. Or maybe the next. But it'll come, and I'll win this time.
As a matter of fact, I got blind-sided by a Mack truck full of experience a few hours ago. I stopped talking to my therapist at 4, but I'm still working on it.
If you think about your depression as being in a hole, then don't limit your therapist's role as to only letting her help you fill the hole. Even once you're out of it, you're going to have relapses or new problems. More importantly, if you "fill the hole", now you have something to build on. Who knows you better and can help with the welcome sorts of problems that happen because you're trying something new, something positive with your life?