Posted by Aphrodite on May 6, 2004, at 14:41:03
In reply to How I hate to ask for help! (Long, may trigger), posted by Aphrodite on May 1, 2004, at 8:33:12
Well, I went to my session today. I used Dinah's technique of inviting my feelings. I practiced Daisy's words, which I thought were perfect. An hour before the session, I listened to a wonderful storyteller tape by a Jungian psychologist; it's called "Warming the Stone Child" and it's about myths of abandonment and the unmothered child. If that fits your life, I highly recommend it. (Sorry, Dr. Bob, the quote thing doesn't seem to work for books on tape from Amazon, or, more likely, I don't know what I'm doing.) Anyway, this tape had my emotions raw and exposed. On the way to his office, I listened to the most heart-wrenching music I have.
So what happened? I walked into his office, full of emotion and ready to ask for more sessions and ready to cry (waterproof mascara and all), and corporate Aphrodite, CEO and President of my life, took control of the meeting and we spent the next hour talking about how to best deal with a difficult middle management person and strategies to further my career.
You know what it is? I figured it out (I think) on the way home. I'm confident in my career; I'm full of the right answers. I like to impress him because he responds to me so well in this intellectual mode -- he's very interested and animated, and I like to please him. When I'm raw and weepy and emotional, he is so different, very validating and understanding but aloof. I feel like I've troubled him.
I guess there is always next week:(