Posted by ghost on May 5, 2004, at 12:20:45
In reply to Re: better give it back..., posted by B2chica on May 5, 2004, at 11:27:37
> boy, this is me to a 'T'. sometimes it just makes me sick to my stomach that my reaction time to this sucks and then... the snowball of self-hate begins.
omg. EXACTLY.... how eerie.
> > there's no "escape" key in real life, so to speak.
> how many time have i wished there were...
me too. funny, somewhat unrelated story: i had a bad spell awhile ago, and was doing my usual online journal venting, and i splashed a few drops of water (not much at all) on my laptop kb and a bunch of the keys just STOPPED WORKING. i was furious. (espeically since my previous laptop had withstood countless soda spills without any problems for many years and this laptop was much newer). it was late at night and all the computer stores were closed. so i went to walmart and bought a cheap $10 kb to get me through the night. but it turns out it was only a ps/2 keyboard (or whatever those round ports are), and my laptop only had usb ports. it came with an adapter but it was the wrong one. i was so angry i smashed the kb to BITS. broke every key off of it. keys were everywhere. i was all bruised up. the next day i cleaned up all the keys and saved them in a bag (hey, i could use them for art or something). awhile later, when i'd forgotten about the incident, i found a key laying out in the open on my floor. it was (you may have guessed) the escape key.
> They BETTER! i know i had just filled Rx and i had about four full bottles of pills and two (yes Two) knives in my purse and they took it all and locked it up. when i was released the one nurse didn't want to give me the pills or the knives and she gave me a bad look and turned to another nurse and said "what about these?" the other nurse said if it has her name on it she has to get it back. so she sneered at me but gave it back.
i don't like nurses like that. i used to work in healthcare and i always hated the nurses who would act like that. i always felt like they weren't treating patients like real people. it makes me angry.
> FYI, i did have a REALLY BAD reaction to going off some meds there, it was very lucky i was in the hospital.
i'm pretty sensitive to most medications, so it would be nice to have healthcare available if i got sick (or mentally unstable) while trying new drugs. i remember when i quit taking paxil many years ago i got *so* sick for weeks. i was so dizzy i had motionsickness. it was awful.
> i would see the "real person" goal actually as more important than just survival...stick with it.
i think you might be on to something....