Posted by B2chica on May 5, 2004, at 11:27:37
In reply to Re: angry after T session. (long) *possible trigge » B2chica, posted by ghost on May 5, 2004, at 10:48:56
>or someone will do something that hurts me, and a few days later i'll think of something sharp and biting to say to make them realise how i feel, rather than just sucking it up and taking it when it happens.
boy, this is me to a 'T'. sometimes it just makes me sick to my stomach that my reaction time to this sucks and then... the snowball of self-hate begins.
> there's no "escape" key in real life, so to speak.
how many time have i wished there were...
> do they give it back? i have a swiss army knife on my keychain i'm rather attached to....
They BETTER! i know i had just filled Rx and i had about four full bottles of pills and two (yes Two) knives in my purse and they took it all and locked it up. when i was released the one nurse didn't want to give me the pills or the knives and she gave me a bad look and turned to another nurse and said "what about these?" the other nurse said if it has her name on it she has to get it back. so she sneered at me but gave it back.
> wow. my friend last night was telling me about the med observations too. sometimes it's easier to change meds in a controlled environment. i have to agree with this.
FYI, i did have a REALLY BAD reaction to going off some meds there, it was very lucky i was in the hospital.
> the urge for survival isn't really there yet, but the urge to be a real person again is almost tangible.
i would see the "real person" goal actually as more important than just survival...stick with it.