Posted by Pandabear on April 28, 2004, at 23:29:50
I need help. Everyone that has been following me might not believe this...I know I dont. I went to my session with my psychiatrist and she mentions how that she isnt going to give me a tranquilizer for my doctors appt until i make an appt because she is afraid that I am going to abuse the drug...I understand her reasoning...*i wouldnt abuse the drug but I know she has to be careful BUT, then,...we are sitting there talking and she says that she wants to have a family session with my dad and mom and my therapist, psychiatrist and me. I told her no. SEVERAL TIMES I MIGHT ADD..and she wouldnt take it as an answer. All she said was "I will have my receptionist call your dads office for an appt." I was furious. When I was leaving, I asked the receptionist to have my therapist call me before she left the office for the day and so I went home and got into bed bawling. My therapist calls me around six thirty and I am completey upset. I talked to her telling her how upset and angry I was and she was completely understanding. She told me she was going to talk to my psychiatrist and then call me back after work the next day. The next day after work she calls me and says that she talked to my psychiatrist and she told her that basically i was right...that I am 25 and I have every right to say if I do or do not want to include my family and that it really isnt fair to force me to include my family if I dont want it". My psychiatrist then says that for me to be able to continue in therapy with them that i have to have family therapy sessions....SO basically if I DONT have a family session from now on...I will be terminated. My therapist knows that i dont want to have a family session and she hasnt been asking me for one at all. She doesnt want me to leave and tells me that they are not trying to run me off but that My psychiatrist is extremely worried about me. She only wanted to meet with my family because she told me she doesnt understand me and she doesnt understand why I get so anxious and upset when I leave therapy. I told her the reason I do is bc i realize when I leave that I dont have my therapist to talk to anymore and it upsets me. She tells me i need to get a support group and I said that I do...the problem is that i cannot talk to my friends like i talk to my therapist and that if i talk to much it can ruin the friendship..and, i have lost many friends because I have done just that. She is very frustrated with me. I cannot stand the way im being treated by her and she is hearing me but NOT listening to me. I Can understand if I were 10 years old and she wanted to include my family ..I wouldnt have any choice if i were a minor and she could do whatever she wanted. OR if i were literally crazy and couldnt make my mind up..she could..but im not crazy and Im not ten years old and I DO have a say in what goes on with my mental status. ANYWAY...I dont know what im going to do if I get terminated. There are several therapists and docs that work in the office and Im going to see if I can switch psychiatrists so that I can still go to my therapist. But, if they come as a package..i might be out of luck. My therapist told me that my psychiatrist wants to make sure I still like her and that I still want to go to her. Well, I like her as a person but she is really irritating me by not listening to me. My therapist told me this evening that she is going to talk to my psychiatrist tomorrow and then call me if she gets a cancellation tomorrow ..even if she doesnt she is going to call me after work and tell me what my psychiatrist says. I told my therapist it will be more stressful to me if Im terminated because I will have to start over with someone new and I dont want that to happen...and she agrees that that would be too much. I think that she is going to try really hard to keep me with her...I hope. I have been with her for about 2 years... I am so emotional and its going to make me depressed if I have to be terminated FOR NOTHING. My therapist asked me if she had put me on any more medicine and I said no..I hope she wont...I could of course give in and say yeah lets have a family meeting but, I really dont want to give her the satisfaction of having a meeting...Im not trying to please her..Im trying to please myself..without disrespecting her and im not trying to upset her..but i know i am. YET, my therapist seems to think that Im doing ok. She and I seem to be on the same page. My dad is agreeing with me that the way she is treating me is wrong and that she is not treating me correctly and that it isnt fair to force me into something I dont want to do. He has NO intention of scheduling an appt with her unless I say it is ok. Which I will not because I dont think it is necessary AT THIS TIME. I dont understand why she cannot just come out and ask me the question..I can tell her anything she wants to know about me. She isnt trying to dig up the past with my parents..what she wants from them is why im acting the way i am now..and why i worry so much...EXCUSE ME BUT I HAVE WORRIED ALL MY LIFE. She also wanted to ask my parents what i was missing from them that they maybe werent giving me. I told her there was NO WAY she could ask that because they have given me EVERYTHING...she was like oh..ok..whatever. My dad was furious. I JUST DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO. IF I am terminated, Im going to be severly depressed..and it stinks because work is going really well right now and the last thing I need is to be upset..too late for that I guess. Please offer some words of advice or support..Im so lost right now.
poster:Pandabear
thread:341166
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