Posted by cubic_me on March 26, 2004, at 10:42:14
In reply to SI question (caution may trigger), posted by crushedout on March 26, 2004, at 8:36:32
Hi Crushed,
I find that I SI more when I'm going into or out of depression, but I also SI when I'm feeling OK. I think that for me, I have too little energy to SI when I am very depressed, but a little more when I am moderately depressed. When I am coping better, and seeming on the outside to be 'happy' etc, I still feel some degree of depression on the inside, and SI is a way of telling myself that even though I'm putting on this facade of being OK, really I'm not.
I find that SI can really help me cope if I do it before a situation where I have to seem happy and outgoing, because I still know that the marks on my body are there and that there is something wrong. It is a way of taking care of me. I hope that all makes some kind of sense!!
You said about the trigger warnings too. I don't personally get triggered by words or pictures, but I can understand that some people do, and I'm happy to put trigger warnings on posts that need it and keep post titles non-graphic.
_me x
> Does anyone SI more when they're feeling happy and coping well?
> Lately, when I'm really depressed, I don't have the energy to do it, but it's when I start coping that the urge comes to me. When I start feeling more up. I wonder if it's a way to moderate the coping, like, on some level I'm worried about coping too well and I want to still be dependent or something.
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> On another note, last weekend on Babble I saw a post in which someone wrote something about cutting in the subject line and just seeing that triggered my urge to cut, which I then did. So, I think we should be careful not to put stuff like that in the subject lines and I see the importance of the warnings. But maybe that's just me. (I don't mean to blame anyone for my cutting. I guess I'm just asking that folks try to be careful about stuff like this in the future.)
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