Posted by Adia on December 22, 2003, at 20:49:58
In reply to Re: 'success' in psychoanalysis » Adia, posted by Pfinstegg on December 22, 2003, at 20:29:26
Hi Pfinstegg,
Thank you for your response. I see her once a week, but she´s going away on holidays, this time..I had a very difficult time opening up, being unable to say a word even,but I am slowly starting to trust her and as you said it is a new and healing experience..I´ve just just started talking about the abuse in words out loud, and I had never done that..and her absence is so hard right now for me..it´s such a long time..in the last session she told me not to try to go deep into those things when she´s just going away and I can´t have her support..I am trying to hang on till feb, I have my psychiatrist..and I am trying to trust friends too..i´ll hang on.
I tell myself she´s not abandoning me and I tell myself I can count on her ...
I am glad you are building trust with your therapist too and slowly feeling more secure in your relationship...it is hard to sustain trust..and to open up...but it is so relieving to be able to trust someone and not get hurt and be accepted with all you carry inside.Thank you for your response,
lots of support,
Adia.> Hi Adia.. I'm really glad you posted. It seems a very long time until Feb 19. Do you just see your therapist every two months or so? I really commend you for being able to work so hard and build up trust, even with such infrequent visits. I am able to go twice a week, so that it isn't so long between visits- time I tended to use in getting worried about whether my therapist ever wanted to see me again and in building up mountains of self-hate. That was when I didn't feel securely attached. Now, it is so much better, as I am beginning to feel more confident that the analyst will be reliably empathic and understanding- that I can just count on him being THERE for me. As you say, it's a completely new experience for many of us, and very healing in and of itself, even before the trauma has been explored. Of course, you know I wish you could see your therapist more often. It must be so hard to open up these extremely painful, vulnerable areas, and then have to wait two months before continuing.
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