Posted by DaisyM on December 19, 2003, at 15:16:13
In reply to Re: From Angry to Sad » DaisyM, posted by fallsfall on December 19, 2003, at 12:09:13
Yeah, but I would have to tell him I was mad in order to have him help me and I haven't decided if I want to do that. I keep thinking by Monday I will have "gotten over it."
It could be stuff from the past since we were talking about it. In fact, we were talking about how some of my simple sweet memories bring on such sadness now because they have become tainted by the other stuff. He asked me if I was angry about that, and I said I couldn't get past the sadness to connect to the anger. Hmmm...
Here is another strange thing, I'm relatively sure I've rewritten some of the session in my head. I did a lot of journaling last night, and when I reread it, it doesn't match what I now remember. For example, I'm remembering him looking bored at one point. But I'm sure I would have written that down. And I know he talked more than he usually does, so I don't think he was bored. I also have been remembering him redirecting the conversation into another area, which he NEVER does, without asking.
Maybe my unconscious telling me I don't want to think about the content of the conversation? I don't know.
So, I guess I should bring all this up, but I feel like a little kid who didn't get her way. Plus it is a Holiday week. *sigh* I feel very alone again. Like I've lost something...
-D
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