Posted by DaisyM on December 2, 2003, at 14:14:40
I've decided that just like everything else, therapy has "stages" -- developmentally very much like a child. It struck me after my appointment last night that I've moved into a new stage, though I don't have a handle all the way on what it is yet.
I guess I can't tell if I've move backwards or forewards. I feel very shut down but the good thing is that I have (finally!) been able to close off some of the neediness and I don't feel "so" depressed.
I told my Therapist this when he asked how I had been feeling. I told him that I felt like we had "gone through" something. He thought maybe it had to do with his "question" (see above post) and wondered if perhaps he shouldn't have asked it. I disagreed because it helped me quiet myself. I called it a reality check -- a little like cold water. He said he didn't think it was a good thing because he thinks now I'm hiding myself again, especially that part that had just started to express any overt needs. He seemed sorry that he asked it...
So now I don't know what to talk about Thursday, because even if I'm hiding myself, it is so much better than needing him so much and not being able to figure out why or what exactly I want him to do for me.
Backwards or forwards? Holding still seems the safest option!
-D
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