Posted by Morgen on July 21, 2003, at 2:01:26
In reply to Re: Forever therapy » Ilene, posted by fallsfall on July 16, 2003, at 18:27:22
I realize that I am coming into this conversation (that is, "Forever Therapy") incredibly late, and I apologize if this is back-tracking to the rest of you, but it is so nice to read that others have similar attachment-related concerns. I am moving out of the state for a reason beyond my control and have only a few appointments left with my therapist. We (my therapist and I) knew this was coming, and part of me is really mad at her for not picking up on it earlier that saying goodbye to her was something I needed a lot of preparation for. There is the rational me that knows she's not psychic, and also knows that I've hidden the intensity of how I feel somewhat effectively... which has a lot to do with my fear of being inappropriate and my fear of being rejected (and perhaps those are the same thing?). Still, right now I regret therapy, and that doesn't feel good because I think the world of my therapist and generally tend to think we've done a lot of good work together.
There is precious little on the internet about "transference" that is even remotely comforting. Most of what I found was clearly written for the professional, and I think I just made myself worse by reading about myself in the third person. But I suppose its progress to admit what's going on with me.
Thanks for the recommendation someone made earlier on the book -- I intend to pick it up. I'm looking at only three or four sessions more at the very most, and if I'm going to come across information about a "diagnosis" I at least want to hear (somewhere) that its normal and natural... or at the very least, that I'm not alone.
Thanks
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