Posted by Miller on December 17, 2002, at 8:14:13
In reply to Re: Miller, posted by Dinah on December 16, 2002, at 21:56:34
Hi Dinah,
Thank you for responding to my post.
Yes, I have done horrible things. My psychologist had the same opinion as you do right now for a while. After I told him of the things I have done, his opinion changed considerably.
I understand what you are saying about forgiving myself. However, I honestly can not say I wouldn't do bad things again. As far as "learning my lesson" goes, I don't trust myself not to repeat my past; even the horrible deeds I did.
The past SI the past, but the future holds possibilities for good AND evil. I may be looking forward to evil.
The person I would want to be, I think is not possible because of my temperment. My shrink keeps telling me that I have to accept that I am a highly emotional person and to work with that and not continually regret it. Easier said than done.
As far as steps I am making... I thought by seeing a shrink I would be able to find the answers. Since that wasn't working as well as I expected, I have joined this group and one similar. I am trying to talk more about my feelings in hopes that I will be able to learn to communicate emotions better. Other than that, I am open for suggestions.
-Miller
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