Posted by likelife on November 12, 2002, at 19:46:36
In reply to Re: mistake?, posted by Miller on November 12, 2002, at 6:50:54
Miller,
Thanks for your comments. It's so helpful just to know that there are other people out there who share your same concerns.
Writing letters to my therapist has kind of been my way of saying the things I can't possibly say in person, and, from time to time, I find myself in the position of really worrying about what I have written (though I've never tried to fish a letter out of the mailbox :)).
My worst case scenario is that she would get totally freaked out, and refuse to see me anymore. This has been a fear of mine throughout therapy, as she has been the one therapist (out of 5 or 6) that I haven't left yet, either because I thought I couldn't take it anymore, or I moved to a different state. And, while she has reassured me countless times that she can handle anything I bring up, and that she has no current plans of going anywhere, I still harbor this huge fear. Others have talked about fears of abandonment in other posts, and it's been helpful to read those as well. I just wish I knew where this fear came from, and how I can possibly get over it (since the "data" coming from my therapist having not left doesn't seem to be helping--I don't know if that really makes sense).
Anyways, thanks again for your post. I'm still waffling over whether or not to see my therapist, but I haven't canceled the appointment yet, so we'll see.
Likelife
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