Posted by alexandra_k on November 25, 2018, at 1:11:12
In reply to Re: I feel kinda bad... » alexandra_k, posted by SLS on November 20, 2018, at 21:34:04
thanks to all you guys, for still being here. so i felt like someone was still here, for me. for others too, i'm sure. but for me, at least in part. responding to my posts.
i did an interview. it seems like there was a fairly genuine misunderstanding because of the way the uni has internal transcripts that have past study and present enrolment but my upload only had past study and they didn't realise my present enrolment (and present enrolment was necessary for eligability). anyway... after some discussion... one day after 2 days of interviews had already been held... they offered me one on the last day, at the end of next week.
they asked about referees about whether i was suitable to work with children... and that got me thinking on some stuff... anyway... it meant i needed to ask people to do that. and i discovered... remembered... that i really do have some wonderful friends irl. i've withdrawn from them in more recent years because things have been going so badly for me (no funds). because that made it hard for me to be an equal in the relationship. but they were all willing to go into bat for me, for this, and i... couldn't believe it, really. i mean... i probably shouldn't doubt them but...
i realise i am my own worst enemy a lot of the time. i don't have much in the way of self-confidence. and i do understand other people don't have the time / energy to go around reassuring me all the time... i do try and be strong. that's probably why i often seem aloof and so on. it's my way of trying to appear strong. anyway... i feel like a lot of people actually want me to succeed in this and i just can't believe it. i mean... i'm so touched. we don't celebrate thanksgiving but i think we probably should. there are a lot of things i'm feeling grateful for, right now.
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