Posted by alexandra_k on April 21, 2009, at 20:57:03
In reply to Re: Pseudoname is dead, posted by alexandra_k on April 21, 2009, at 20:37:11
Maybe its partly cause I didn't feel like I got to grieve. Parts kinda did but I didn't really get to grieve along with everyone else. I didn't get to grieve for my father either. Well, in the end I did but I didn't get to go to the funeral to grieve along with everyone else. I feel sad that I never got to meet you in person. Babble meets used to mean a lot to me. There was a point where they really meant a great deal. I would have given anything in the world to get to one. Then there was a point where I would have given anything in the world to get to one (except this one thing) and it basically came down to precisely that. And now, well... They feel kinda worthless. But I regret not meeting you. Guess you are an ideal for me now. Cause I don't know you really. Don't know that much about you. Just a symbol for kindness and pain. And that doesn't feel kinda fair. Cause you are more than that. And maybe I don't really have a right to grieve when I don't even know who the f*ck you were or who you were really. I'm sorry dude. I'm so sorry.