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Re: Suicide Dinah

Posted by calamityjane on July 31, 2008, at 11:54:40

In reply to Re: Suicide calamityjane, posted by Dinah on June 16, 2008, at 11:35:14

Thanks, Dinah, for your post. I intended to respond much sooner, but just have not been back to the boards in awhile.

I have a 7 year old daughter, and while she is most certainly not my sole reason for living, she brings LIFE into my life. I wonder who she will be when she grows up, and I dont want to miss a moment of her life.

I guess those are the feelings I am relying on, when I ask how he possibly could have left me.

I could never leave her -

I do wonder very much so what it felt like to be him. I want to know if his pain was worse than the pain I now have because of him. That is just something I never will get the chance to know.

People tell me that depression is terrible. But I think knowing that your very own parent CHOSE to leave permanantly is just as terrible a feeling, if not worse. - my dad left me and he knew he was NEVER coming back. I was 5.

Its hard for me to not feel bitter towards suicide. I am furious that it exists. I sm furious that God gives us that option to check out early. God put me here in this world that he made - a world where children depend on parents. I did not ask to be born into a world like this one - so how could God possibly give MY father the option to leave me?




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