Posted by karen_kay on June 4, 2008, at 12:10:48
well, i'm not really good at getting close to people (i swear it! mister kk says my blood is ice cold, and it's not an exaggeration). but, i've gotten pretty close to people here. usually, irl (whatever that means, babble's as real to me as real life anyway), i keep people at a distance. it's for a reason honestly, i don't like to get hurt (duh! who does?).
but, anyway, this sh*t hurts. real bad. you 'guys' aren't just names on a screen to me, you know? i worry. i feel guilt. and responsibility (i know, it's my issue, much of the reason why i keep people at a distance). and mostly sadness.
sorry, i'm not trying to make thigns all about me, but please take care of yourselves, for my sake? i really do care.
i have bmail on, though i'm probably the most horrible person at getting back to emails. sh*t, i'll give you my phone number and we can phone sex or something (5.99 a minute though). and to be honest, i'm terrified of the phone sometimes too, so i guess that form of communication is unreliable, at best.
seriously, i don't want to get close to people jsut to lose them. it's really starting to hurt and i jsut hate hurting.