Posted by woolav on August 4, 2004, at 14:50:06
In reply to Re: Merlin's fantastic passing » fayeroe, posted by BarbaraCat on July 29, 2004, at 12:59:03
I have read all the posts about Merlin. It gets me in the heart. I had to put down my cocker spaniel about 6 yrs ago from cancer. She fought hard, but I was and still am, fragile mentally. So, it takes alot to just get myself through life. But, anyway, I have panic disorder and lots of other goodies...But when my dog was sick, I couldnt really deal with it. I kinda tried to block it because i thought i would end up in a mental hospital or something. And i have a daughter to raise. So, i had to try to keep myself going and i couldnt do what i wanted for her. And to this day, i feel such guilt. I couldnt even be in the room when they put her to sleep. I have hated myself for that and other things since then. But she did come to me in a dream and she was "glowing" like an angel and i knew she wanted me to know she was okay. About a year after her passing, i rescued a dog from the pound who was days away from being put down herself. And i have given her all my heart. And i know one day, i will have to deal with her passing and i pray that i will be strong enough.