Posted by katia on July 31, 2004, at 1:25:20
In reply to Re: Baby Rock's Blue Ribbon days » katia, posted by BarbaraCat on July 30, 2004, at 19:58:15
I like your mantras. I am feeling very strange. Very on edge and scared and all so sad. I feel like I"m getting worse. I feel so much anxiety and dread over what happened. I keep replaying it in my mind. I feel scared. I am wondering if I'm suffering from PTSD (post traumatic stress). I feel quesy all the time and my hands are shaking. And I cry all the time - intermittenly throughout the day and night. I love sleep because it's such an escape. I am wondering if I should up my Paxil. I'm at such a low dose 12.5mg. I'm going to give it a few days. I guess there is no medication for a broken heart. Maybe I should restart therapy. I feel awful.
I wonder about myself and healthy grief and healthy grief going too far and me slipping into a depression. That's what feels like is happening. I seem to be getting worse. My period is due soon and there is a full moon; but this feels bigger than just that.
It means so much to me to talk with you Barbara. I just hope I can be as much support for you as you are being for me right now. I appreciate everything you say.
Cathy, the animal communicator works via phone or in person. She's very very geniune and authentic. Her website is www.animalmuse.com if you are interested in doing any work with Merlin or any others. Sounds like you and Merlin are quite connected already. I am hoping to get to the place where I can take this as a gift and so forth. I'm feeling so disheartened and lifeless at the moment(s).
keep in touch please.