Posted by rayww on September 14, 2004, at 9:26:20
In reply to Re: Suicide, posted by PTSD_Girl on September 13, 2004, at 21:12:52
That is a good explanation of the battle we face within, but lest we forget, we are stronger than evil. Sometimes all we have to do is lift ourselves just a little, and as soon as we make the attempt we discover forces beyond our own are there to help carry us. It has been said that there is lift in opposition (law of aeronautics). It is true in spiritual matters as well.
What things do you use to lift yourself? Anything that "touches" reality will do. Smile at a child. Spend 10 minutes in each room of your house (or area of interest) doing all you can, and move on to the next when the timer beeps. Be kind to a person who is close to you. Welcome the sunshine. Eat something healthy. The list is endless. Breathe, and feel your breath. Do a little exercise. Have a hot bath and pamper yourself. Write a story and make a happy ending.
When you write a story anything you want to can happen in it, and it gives you something to read later on. I like to write about emotional pain and help the person in the story work their way through it in unique ways. This is a form of journaling, where you are actually writing about your own life and pain, but hiding behind another character, and mixing truth with fiction. You can draw amazing characters from people you already know, exagerating whatever you want. I'm no writer, but certainly have fun with that one.
Just pick an emotion and run with it. Jump on a motorcycle and run away from the city, and see where you end up. Or run into the eye of a storm. Start with a dream, or put a dream in the middle of a story. I'm rambling here because last night I sat and read a few of my own and decided they weren't all that bad after all. I feel the most lift in the really bad ones, the ones that succeed in releasing the most emotional pain. Strange, I haven't had a lot of that deep emotional pain since I last wrote. What does that say?
Keep in mind that I am a person of faith, who clings to Jesus Christ through daily prayer and scriptures. That is the most sure way of overcoming and lifting ourselves away from despair. Without that hope, there might not be lift in opposition. I don't know because I have never been without that aspect of life. But I know God is no respector of persons, and what He says to one He says to all, so what is available to me is available to everyone, and it is very real. When I say touch something, I also mean touch God and He will be there to lift you over your despair.