Posted by jay on July 1, 2002, at 11:27:29
In reply to Re: Finding god in a vapour trail...and losing it... » jay, posted by Lou Pilder on June 30, 2002, at 8:19:51
> Jay,
> When I was in the City of Peace, I boasted to some that when I returned to the world thatI would do such-and-such. Then I was told,
> "You do not know what will happen tomorrow. For what is your life? It is even a vapor that appears for a little time and then vanishes away."
> Jay, have you been to that City?
> LouI don't know if I have been to the City you mention Lou. I got the idea actually, from a book I am reading,(a true story) which is about a man who loses his only child in an accident one year, and then his wife dies of cancer the next year. The poor soul becomes deeply suicidal, and the only way he feels he can continue is to 'escape'...and he does this by taking his motorbike, and rides it for almost a year and a half on a trip from Quebec, to Alaska, then down to Mexico. He finds lots of beauty...but he doesn't find peace.
Is *the* answer to 'escape'? In some ways, we use medications to alter our reality, which is a 'bit' of an escape, and we also use religion to fit our lives, which is also a bit of an escape. Maybe 'escaping' isn't so bad afterall. If we can make another journey a part of our reality, I think it is a great thing. I used to scoff at religion, but it helps me now, really, to adapt my reality to one of more depth, more understanding.
Do you know what I mean? I guess it really is about closing our eyes, and having that Faith, even in the darkest of times when we can't afford to close our eyes. It's the painful feeling, the one of loss, though, that hurts me the most. That's why I talk about the short-lived vapor trail, and my deep fears of losing the ones I love, and my fear of never getting myself grounded again. That fear is preventing me from having the Faith I so much need.
I hope that makes sence...
Thanks
Jay
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