Posted by Bauxite on January 26, 2006, at 23:13:48
Hi!
I've been recently diagnosed bipolar following what was deemed to be a manic episode in August of last year. What happened is as follows: I had begun experiencing bizarre sensations of drug-like euphoria (actually, hyper-euphoria, better than anything I've ever experienced on marijuana, which I smoked quite a bit last year) prior to leaving for school. This only intensified after arriving there, and was apparently mutual as both my peers and professors commented on it (even those who didn't know me). For better or worse, I misinterpreted it, made some ridiculous comments and was thrown in a psych ward for being a potential threat (even though I meant no physical harm by what I said). I was then medicated on god-knows-what for four days, released, and placed on lithium and rispiridone to stabilize my mood. Now, the emotional connection I felt that week is gone and so, for the most part, is my ability to meditate. First, is my experience a classic case of mania, and second, is there any supplemental actiivity/substance I can use to regain those higher levels of consciousness (I've considered using weed again as everyone believes it to be the primary catalyst)?
poster:Bauxite
thread:603280
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/alter/20051208/msgs/603280.html