Posted by barbaracat on October 11, 2005, at 13:40:05
In reply to Re: More from the Macuna front » barbaracat, posted by gromit on October 11, 2005, at 1:29:01
> I've read that Xanax is the one benzo that has AD properties instead of possibly increasing depression. Can't remember the details though but I'm pretty sure I read that here more than once.
**Now that you mention it, I do remember reading that. It's the one benzo that actually makes me zoned out. Klonipin supposedly has anti-seizure properties and is used as a mood stabilizer. Sometimes I wonder if they actually have different chemical structures or if it's more a sales pitch by the manufacturer.
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> MDD, dysthymia, excessive daytime sleepiness, nervousness in social situations that I guess isn't bad enough to be diagnosed social anxiety. I had one doctor, who was the best, say I was describing symptoms of alexathymia after talking with him about therapy.**Alexathymia, now there's a new one on me. Is it that you really don't know, as in inattentive to the point of not noticing how you're feeling, or is it that you know how you feel but can't express it?
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> So no clear diagnosis except ADD and I believe everything else is a result of going 40 yrs without being diagnosed.**Mine changes too. I spent most of my life thinking I had major unipolar depression, only a flavor unlike other depressives I knew. It's been reclassified as bipolar I with mixed states depressions (which is why those horrid agitated depressions were such nightmares). I think I've always had a touch of ADD but it's unclear if it's comorbid along with the bipolar, or if it's just a facet of bipolar, like how does a person act when they're having a melt-down. Organized? Focused? I think not.
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> I've been wondering if it's possible to trick yourself to the point that you're not aware of something, but subconsciously it's still there and comes out in different ways. I was really nervous and hyper as a kid, after enough times in class or a group suddenly realizing everyone is looking at me waiting for a response and I have no clue what they were talking about cause I was zoned. A bunch of stuff like that, and cool kids don't act nervous so yeah I did try my best to hide it.**The thing is, most of us are going around desperately pretending we're not as dorky as we feel. If we'd just admit it and get and give support this would be different world. Instead we torment those who have the same shadow characteristics we deny in ourselves.
When I'm feeling tired and wired I become super sensitive and irritable. When I'm dysthymic and lethargic I either couldn't give a rip or else don't have enough energy to notice anything outside my little world.
You're on the Alternative board so you must have also sought out alternative doctors and such to look into physical reasons. I'm aghast at how the majority of pdocs never consider physcial dysfunctions - hormonal imbalances, gut dysbiosis, viruses, allergies. They rarely if ever look below the neck.
I also have fibromyalgia which could be separate or part of the whole package, but it put me hot on the trail to find out what was going on with me. I'm finally starting to get better and alot of it was how I was asimilating hormones, including thyroid, even though my TSH values cames back OK. It's been piece by piece detective work but I definitely had physical things going on that weren't obvious. As I clear them up my mood disorders are resolving also.
Point is, your mood issues could be symptoms of an underlying health issue that we both know won't get addressed by the typical physician or pdoc. I've had the best results from naturopaths, but they're not perfect either.
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> BTW how did you know I can't dance?**Cause you have to be present in your body. From what you describe it sounds like your energy is rising too fast up and out the top which would acount for the upper body tension and probably neck tightness and headaches. Doing something that brought the energy back down, like walking or anything that emphasized balance and coordination would help ground that energy leak. So would breathing slow and deep into the lower belly. You probably breath high into your upper chest. That's going to both cause anxiety and leave you exhausted.
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> I was thinking of asking to try something else. Not that I don't like ambien but am worried about tolerance after taking it every night for a long time.**Well, I took it for 3 years straight and it worked fine. Only took about 1 week of rebound insomnia to get off it. I still take it when I can't get to sleep. The complaints I've heard about Sonata is that it's like Ambien but wears of in 3-4 hours so you're likely to wake up too early. And forget Lunesta unless you like the taste of old pennies in your mouth all day long.
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> The Codex thing worries me, the medical marijuana debacle showed me this administration doesn't give a hoot about people's suffering or rights. That's another topic for another board though I guess.
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> Amen, brother. Probably a good thing there isn't a Politics board on this site or I'd be spending too much time over there ranting and raving. Actually, I've pretty much just given it over regarding politics. It's enough to work on myself. I can't take on a corrupt and inept government. Cheerio! - Barbara
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