Posted by jujube on January 16, 2005, at 14:47:24
In reply to Re: SJW ok for severe depression? » jujube, posted by KaraS on January 16, 2005, at 1:01:24
> You must be incredibly strong. I don't think I could hide how I'm doing right now.
-- I don't feel that strong these days. It's been a year of one setback after another, and that has really taken it's toll on me. But, the way I look at it is that there are people who have been through, and continue to go through, much more than I am or ever have. So, I'm trying to stay off the "pity pot" and focus on getting through this and back to the life I am used to living.
> Probably. I'm just so tired of agonizing over it. It will be a huge relief just to start on something. When do you see your doctor about the Provigil? Are your supplements helping again now that you're off of the pain medication?
-- It is an agonizing decision. From my own experience this past year, I found that the trials and the inadequate responses can really exacerabate the depression and anxiety. But, you already know that Effexor helped you when you used it before, so that's something positive to hold on to. Then, all you have to focus on is identifying an effective augmenter. In any event, I will be thinking of you as you struggle to make your decision.
I see the pdoc on Thursday, and will do my best to make a case for Provigil. If he won't go for that, then I will insist on nortriptyline. I have read some positive things about nortriptyline, so I think I would be comfortable taking it. I haven't been very diligent about taking my supplements. I also haven't been able to eat much since the surgery and have been relying on meal replacement shakes (Ensure) to keep me going. So, these things have certainly had a further effect on me. I'll get back into my routine soon I'm sure.
> I hope your hand is continuing to improve. I'll definitely talk to you later.
-- Thanks Kara. The pain and discomfort has subsided significantly, and I am able to sleep a bit better. The past day or so I have really been catching up on my sleep, and that has made me feel a bit better. I miss being able to get out for long walks, but the roads and sidewalks are so icy (we've had a lot of freezing rain and normal rain followed by very cold temperatures this winter) it's hard to get out. Oh well, this lousy weather can't go on forever. Anyway, the way I look at it is that things can only get better and I have to continue to believe that.
You take care of yourself, and I'll talk to you soon.