Posted by twinmom on August 5, 2004, at 10:35:17
In reply to Stress Hormone Cortisol, posted by twinmom on July 26, 2004, at 12:02:36
Thank You all for your responses - and no flames here for bashing diet drugs - I really do agree - just an temporary hope against hope kind of thing.
I really do think the meds have quite a bit to do with it - as well as just some normal aging and hormonal stuff. I am 5'7 and weighed 145lbs 3 years ago when I got pregnant with the twins (at the time I was 33) gained about 60 pounds during the pregnancy and lost about 30 lbs within a month of delivery. But then just stuck there at 175lb to 180lb for about 2 years - not pleasant but at least I was still in "normal" sizes at 12's and 14's. But then in Feb. of this year I had to start a new pdoc (insurance change) and she diagnosed me as bipolar and started me on lexapro (which I had been on previously) and Zyprexa (if only I had known then what I know now) and in about 6 weeks gained 30-35 lbs. I stopped zyprexa, she tried topomax (which had horrible side effects for me) and I am now on Wellbutrin (300mg) Zoloft (200mg) Depakote (1000mg) risperdal (.5mg) and just since last week trazadone (150mg).
I am stuck at 210lbs and MISERABLE my weight has always been a huge sensitive area for me and it truly is affecting everything in my life. My pdoc says - oh it's easy stop eating dinner and drink diet drinks and walk 45min to 1 hour everyday....
Ok - so I don't eat a whole lot (probably more than I should to be really "dieting" I have been drinking only diet drinks for 7 years, and hello I live in texas - it's 100 degrees everday so even if I had the motivation to walk I'm not sure when/where I could without dying from heat exhaustion. Not to mention I get tired just thinking about it - I know I should but it is really hard. I work full time and have 4 kids including 2 two year olds. It is so frustrating to hear "just walk an hour everyday - you will loose weight" Well MAYBE if you hadn't put me on the zyprexa it would be such an issue. Oh and this past visit she told me need to loose the weight to be more atractive to my husband - WELL DUH!!
I feel fat and horrible unattractive all the time - it impacts every thought and action and feeling I have.
Thank you for all the ideas - I will do the food and excersise journal for at least a week before our next meeting - just to prove to her that it's not all me overeating and being lazy - it's not all my fault. Ok I know it doesn't matter whose fault it is but at least to have some validation given to my feelings - and at least some direction other than "oh it's easy".
Anyway - thanks for listening and responding - I know there is no magic pill - and I appreciate you all reminding me of that fact - sometimes we just want to believe so badly we need some reinforcment of what we know to be the truth.
Ramona
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