Posted by Jay_Original1 on November 2, 2013, at 15:06:45
In reply to Re: Desperate Cry -Meds and prolonged Grief SLS et al » Jay_Original1, posted by SLS on November 2, 2013, at 2:40:19
> Gosh.
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> I am so, so sorry, Jay.
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> I wish that I had something smart to say. Your plate is much fuller than mine. I admire your perseverance in the face of such tragedy, especially with the many years of suffering that came before. You must be naturally resilient. It is a gift that will help you get through this bad time.
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> I don't know if you qualify, but there is a relatively new mental illness diagnosis of "complicated grief". Treatment includes specialized psychotherapy.
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> https://www.google.com/#q=%22complicated+grief%22
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> What has been your history of diagnoses?
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> Are you bipolar or is there any history of bipolar anywhere in your family? I am curious about the Prozac/Zyprexa combination.
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> Can you give a more detailed description of what you experience? What symptoms give you the most trouble?
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> Is there any PTSD going on? How do you sleep? Do you have nightmares?
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> Why was Geodon chosen?
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> You'll be okay. It might take some time, but I think you'll get there.
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> Homework:
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> 1. Complicated grief
> 2. PTSD and complicated grief
> 3. Developmental PTSD
> 4. Prazosin as a treatment for PTSD
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> - ScottThank you so much, Scott, for your sincere and deep empathy. Yes, I actually know a bit about complicated grief. I am a 3rd year Bachelor of Social Work student, and came across complicated grief in one of my courses on specialties in mental health. I really do fit the picture with complicated grief. My Dx is BP II, with mostly dysphoric mania (agitation..insomnia or/hypersomnia...inability to enjoy pleasure..)
But, I really surprised myself in that I have and can hold a bit of it together. It is just that one symptom of getting to sleep. The Geodon and Zyprexa where prescribed, the Geodon for uplifting my deep sad moods without causing mania, and the Zyprexa for some sedation, especially at bedtime. It is the Zyprexa that has 'pooped out'. I've been on it for over 12 years, and it just seems like my body got used of it.
And yes, there seems to be some PTSD to my illness. I was in the room and watched my Mom die when they stopped the life-support. In the long run, though, I think that was an important thing for me. I know I was with her right till the end, and I got to kiss her and tell her how much I love her, and that I will always forever be with her. Another complication...is my Sister and I had a massive fight over my Mom's care before she died and had her first stroke. I haven't talked to my Sister, even at my Mom's funeral, for a very long time. There where nasty emails sent between us. But....I don't have nightmares, and I think the Geodon and Clonidine help with that.
Developmental PTSD..are you talking about developmental disorders? I did have a few growing up, in that I had problems as a child with reading comprehension, speech, and co-ordination.
I may suggest Prazosin to my doc when I see him this week. I am applying for long-term disability, and my doctor thought that was a good idea. I've lived with my mental illness and treatment for almost 20+ years. The stress of working sets me back BIG time.
Thanks so-much for your time Scott. It is greatly appreciated. I am in need now, but I still have a lot to give, and hope to do so.
Jay
Updated: Nov. 2/13
Dx: Bipolar II with dysphoric mania NOS DOA SOL :)
Rx: Zeldox//Geodon 60mg bid, Prozac 40mg bid, Cymbalta 30mg qhs, Lyrica 300mg bid, Clonidine .4 mg qhs, Clonazepam 1mg qid.
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