Posted by alexandra_k on September 20, 2013, at 4:55:29
In reply to Re: hypersensitive to noise » alexandra_k, posted by europerep on September 19, 2013, at 14:46:13
> It's funny though, for me it's exactly the opposite, I need noise in order to study. Of course by that I don't mean "real", sledgehammer-type noise, but the kind of background noise that you have in a university library. I need to always have a sense of what's happening around me, and noise is very helpful for that. I think it's in part a remnant of my former anxiety disorder that makes that I always need to be aware of everything, just in case a hungry lion, or a serial killer, is sneaking up on me.
That is funny.
There are parts of studying with people around that I like. Sometimes when I become aware that things are quiet and other people are... Productively studying. We all are. Co-ordinated action. There is something about that that is good. I feel that. That is why it is so infuriating when people wreck the environment. I get this in cafes when people aren't studying. Sometimes people are having conversations and it is a background hum... I can be quite productive and tune it all out.
Today I got some better insight. There is this crazy 'no coffee in the library' rule so I was in the cafe by the library outside... Getting a bit done... Then this group comes along. There was one guy... Who seemed to have a natural inclination to speak loudly in a slightly panicked tone (like everyone would speak over him if he didn't speak up and speak quickly). But the people he was with were more laid back. Gentler. Hard to describe. Anyway... He vacillated in his manner. And I vacillated in my response... From him not being a problem to his being really freaking annoying.
I think I smell insecurity / panic / fear or something. The laughter of the people here... It has a hysterical / panicked edge to it. That is what I'm detecting.
Like...
A bird has a special frequency of their call for predation threat.
Can you hear it?
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