Posted by Babak on March 14, 2013, at 3:13:56
In reply to Re: Andrenaline and Modafinil, posted by alchemy on March 13, 2013, at 15:27:51
Yes, I tried Lithium which I had to come of after the first blood test.
I also tried Sodium Valproate which used to make me really sleepy and I also had to come off after a while because of my liver tests.
Then there was the most horrific experience I have ever suffered, i.e. Olanzapine which initially worked wonders, so I thought, but soon the side effects rendered me paralysed with apathy and other horrific symptoms. Unfortunately words like apathy are used so often in day to day language that even doctors forget about their meaning in pathological context. So when I mean paralysed by apathy I mean paralysed. This believe it or not went unnoticed FOR FOUR YEARS by my so called psychiatrist despite the fact that kept missing appointments because I just couldn't move. I kept asking for someone to come and see me but again people didn't seem to believe that one could actually become paralysed with apathy. Then after god knows how long they came around and they found me starving in my bed because I couldn't go out and buy food. But even then it was not diagnosed. I still don't know why I didn't stop it myself, but these side effects include poor judgement as well. They did tell me to reduce the dose which I did and I suppose it must have helped because I was able to force myself to do the minimum. But the horror continued. I had so many small car accidents and then I had two really bad ones within few months of one another. I ended up in ICU and three weeks on morphine drip. I got hooked on morphine first and then heroin because they eased the symptoms. Finally I really thought that I was dying because of some of my symptoms which were noticed by this woman who used to come and clean the place because I just couldn't be "bothered". This was after two suicide attempts when I eliminated it from my medication which was tough but only for a few weeks and then to my amazement all those symptoms got better. I was so amazed that after three months I actually went back on it to check and the symptoms returned after a few days. No one still believes me.
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