Posted by rjlockhart37 on November 30, 2012, at 23:13:13
wake up and look around and think nothing expect going back to sleep, it just makes me really alone when I feel this sh*tty, nothing to look forward too. I post here, give my insight but realize its useless, please don't discouraged reading this...its just i realize that when im in depression i don't want or care what anyone wants...or advice. Laying in bed at night and wishing that I could of been happy with friends....im not a social person, but inside I want to be. Like its better to feel no emotion, than to feel dissappointed. I don't want to entertain or elaborate anymore on this. I go to sleep dreaming someone would come and get me out of my hole...its not gonna happen, not logical, only fantasy.
So....i just wished I could run like a horse...feel life, and fun with others. My horse is missing certain things in the leg that makes it not able to run. It's depressing and soul destroying...but i choose not to think about that anymore....
just keep your heads up....don't live in memories...
not a scholar but understand distress
encourage you to avoid false beliefs