Posted by rjlockhart37 on November 13, 2012, at 16:34:41
i had just posted a long post...and then the computer litterly X'd it out with no reason....its the universe playing games, always playing tricks.
But this morning I prayed to God that ... this is silly but my medications im not responding too...my body builds a resistance to everything I take....So prayed to God this morning about that issue and it actually took effect, the nuvigil, yet it built up a resistance to it....and then by an hour later I felt like the s h i t I did when I had woken up. I just want this body crushed....it has caused nothing but problems, one after the other, its nothing but a POS-piece of ^*^*. So I woke up this morning and rejoiced to Jesus that he awnsered my prayer...then later it totally lost....no one understands but theres something in the bloodstream or in the brain, or some stupid organ that counteracts the medication, and I know your going to say its just in my head, its not...but i don't want to yak on about this..
you like I said before, that I look to external sources that are forces of both from God and darkness. I do it because the energy I get makes me unafraid to anything. But praying to God over and over...and nothing happening, God takes too long sometimes...like waiting in a waiting room for 40 years to even request a prayer, and of course you don't know if its going to be declined. Sometimes I just say f*ck it, and not ask god and find the solution myself, god takes TOO LONG in his ways, staying decades in pain to wait for him. I don't want to be deragatory in saying this...but I've waited too long,
Just can you tell me a little on how to really find out how to be relieved of illness from God and Jesus. I say his name over again, and the scipture says if ask anything in my name I will do it....and then I ask and nothing happens, even after waiting and waiting. It's like God sits up their and procrastinates for hundreds of years and plays games through trial of suffering.
not a scholar but understand distress
encourage you to avoid false beliefs