Posted by rjlockhart37 on August 29, 2012, at 20:21:13
out of all the things ive posted, please don't get me mixed up with being a succesful buisness person yet...my current life is on a hold until I can get back into acting school, and then persue my side work with doing stock trading. As much as I hate my life...i hate the things in it and I'm ready to move...its just the comfort zone of feeling safe...that's the problem, like making a choice to jump out of plane during skydiving...you can stand there a long time but the plane will land soon, so ... get what I mean...my main problem is not my mental deficiets, its the action to take to do something...anti-idleness. Before I do anything I have got to lose this wieght...even to be considered for auditions, and personal appearance in public places.
The medications....the lamictal has caused my speech to be much more better...slowed down, think before I speak. The nuvgil just helps with wakefulness. Prozac has no effect...i don't get that serotonin feeling of fullness.
Family issues: I've been thinking about my brother...having dreams over and over again of me meeting him again... and I regret every day knowing when I see him again he's going to hold that to me. I'm not gonna flatter anymore words that I won't take action to do.
i've got to find the awnsers to my problems through self study and research with both the medication resistance, sitting useless hours not jumping into life and getting a career. I encourge you don't waste energy to respond to this, just read it that's ALL I need. :)
thanks for reading friend...
not a scholar but understand distress
I apologized to no one and was satisfied with who I am.