Posted by rjlockhart37 on August 14, 2012, at 3:40:33
its 3:40am i tip toed to the kitchen...
but another sprit discussion, its 3am and this is time the darkside will come into my thoughts, im suppost to be asleep...but stayed awake...still all this spirit talk and thinking is a way to release myself into a better form of existance, the old way was just thinking about simple things, like a dog walking around in some advanced cage....finally realizing someone constructed this cage and longs to find who it is. God, the devil....they are really the only things I see reality as...someone told me Good and Evil thinking...but i've got to get my mind out of this cage of limitation to another higher way of thinking, and learn how to get out of the cage.
I lay down for a couple hours at night and its agonizing to dream about all my regrets, well not regrets, I have no regrets, but mistakes that resulted into this situation. I had dreams last night of going back to high school and feeling nothing but empty...and falling behind in classes. there's gotta be a way out of this awful feeling of sadness, but i can't explain it to people its like someone coming up to you and forcing moral obligation to feel or give support and advice....that's not the I work....all my mistakes I made....that is if I cried in my milk I spilled to drowning in my own blood....no situation really feels painful anymore...i just get numb.
Anyways...its almost 4....i need to go...thanks for reading....
not a scholar but understand distress
I apologized to no one and was satisfied with who I am.