Posted by rjlockhart37 on August 12, 2012, at 22:17:15
you since about 2008-09 I went from good to bad....since then i'v been sad...not happy, vary much pessimistic and feeling numb to get away from reality. I've got to clear all these grey clouds that are cloging my perception. I want to be that upbeat, confident person I used to be...not this...whatever you call i've ended up.
this is not the end....things change, life will always be life...its the way you see it. I've got to see the real colors instead seeing everything in grey like im weed and lithium. But you know when I wake up the horrible feeling of how the day is going to suck...feeling like I have no purpose because of the mental impairments I have. I want to be optimisic idealic type not the lowlife metnality of thinking everything is grey.
I want out of this...
not a scholar but understand distress
I apologized to no one and was satisfied with who I am.