Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on August 3, 2012, at 12:48:16
In reply to Re: benzo experts » rjlockhart04-08, posted by g_g_g_unit on July 31, 2012, at 10:34:57
sorry for taking so long, I post sometimes and keep my eyes on the bottem of the babble board.
No I could function, but it was really difficult because that mindlock effect caused me to be in really a bad mood. I was focused but it was dyphoric like and I felt I was forced to be overfocused. Higher doses stimulate dopamine and NE to a point where it creates euphoria, elevated levels of it. 15mg of dextroamphetamine would cause me to be zombie like, but 40mg would make me more lively. It's difficult because im probaly my own case relating to this info. I would get confused at times because I was in the mind focus extreme....i can't really explai but I used to drown out that state with alcohol and benzos. It was similar to taking lorazepam 3-4mg with 15mg of dextroamphetamine with maybe some alcohol to swig it down. I've done really stupid things but that's why I used to do it...to get out of that mindlock state. But then I realized it went away at high doses, that's where my abuse started.
good luck....try focalin XR or Vyvanse.
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