Posted by SLS on July 5, 2012, at 6:28:11
In reply to Re: Pessimistic and Pale looking, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on July 4, 2012, at 23:40:41
With severe depression, and yours does seem moderate-to-severe, the cognitive and memory impairments that are integral to the disease come first. They can get worse with age, so it is imperative to fix the problem now and not go for cheap "highs" if you resist the temptation. You would be preserving your brain tissue for achieving the goal of full remission. If your drive to feel good is insatiable, that is very understandable, and I judge you not. Only you can do this fairly.
Much of your depression right now is reactive in that anyone would experience it were they have to endure the trauma, pain, and, seeming intellectual inferiority when you compare yourself to the rest of the world. Welcome to the world of hippocampal / LPFC hypofunctiona, a subsidiary of affective disorder.
I would look into Bipolar / ADD comorbid
I hope some of this makes sense.
If not. Please ask question.
Some see things as they are and ask why.
I dream of things that never were and ask why not.
- George Bernard Shaw