Posted by violetdream on June 15, 2012, at 16:40:35
I am so, so sick of this. I don't have the money, time, resources or willpower to go on the med rollercoaster again because it seems like Parnate hasn't had any effect ever but make me worse, regardless of dose.
I've been on every med CONSTANTLY for more than 10 years. It's time for my brain to take a break, it's hard to get the info since there are so many anti med sites out there but it seems plausible that my neurotransmitters have been basically burned out after all that time.
The only thing I haven't tried is a substantial period off of medications while working on natural and holistic methods. However, since I don't have any motivation or the ability to feel joy, hope etc, I need a temporary thing to rev me up while I dose down.
Basically the only meds in the treatment depression tier I haven't tried are amphetamine type stims (although the pseudo amphetamine "boost" never did anything for me) and opiates. I would not like to be on these things long time, obviously, but I need a way to trick my body into feeling emotions that I can't feel while I work on healing it in different ways and taper down slowly.
Would this be a reasonable approach to getting off meds in this situation? I am really angry and sick of doctors who treat me like a junkie when I ask for *Klonapin* which takes me months to go through. I've never abused any substance, even caffeine, and even Klonapin when my doctor told me to take it daily for sleep. I just didn't want to and I don't have that kind of personality.
How do you find a doctor who will prescribe this and not think you're a junkie? I feel like my only other option is tripping on some Ketamine I'd get off the street somewhere :P