Posted by alchemy on May 29, 2012, at 15:58:32
In reply to Re: What Is Passive Suicide? » Twinleaf, posted by Cecilia on May 29, 2012, at 5:29:16
> Twinleaf, I don't know how many meds or attempts at therapy Phillipa has engaged in. I do know how many I have, and as someone else who has given up and is another person at Babble who is no longer making an "active continued effort to overcome my depression" I can only say that comments like yours HURT. Again, I can't speak for Phillipa, only for myself, but your comments just felt like a slap in the face. Blame the victim, as though depressed people don't already blame themselves every day. Maybe most people who have given up don't spend much time at Psycho Babble, but I am quite sure there are many of us who have tried pretty much everything there is to try. I know there's always something new; I haven't tried vilazodone, maybe at some point I will, but the odds of it working when dozens of other meds have failed are not exactly favorable, to say the least. Maybe someday they will invent new meds that are actually significantly different from the old ones, but like Phillipa I am over 60 and the chances of this happening in my lifetime are pretty remote. So yes, I suppose it's passive suicide, ignoring your insurance companies endless reminders to get a mammogram and the like. Active suicide takes a lot more courage than I have. I've been depressed my whole life and I wish regularly I had done it when I was young and avoided a
> lifetime of pain, but I didn't have the courage. And for those who are going to write in, "it gets better", no it doesn't always. That's reality. I think we're all doing the best we can. CeciliaI agree Cecilia. I'm almost 30 years of feeling depressed, 25 years of trial and errors. If I would have known then that I would still be in this place...not good. I wish I had the courage, I think about ending it all of the time. It must be a personality thing that makes it harder to actually go through with it. My mom & a friend say that they admire my strength to keep pushing along. I think it would take more strength for me to end it.
I don't remember this, but in the begining my mom said she would hold me as a cried not knowing what was wrong. It's amazing how many drugs they have come up with, but that doesn't guarantee that they will work for everyone.
Of course there is a part of me that has a tiny bit of hope. But as I get older and go through more med trials (usually suffer through), the less hope I have.
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