Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on May 22, 2012, at 15:40:07
this is site I post most of my life to...but im not a daily methamphetamine user...for one it is TOO expensive to this habit daily, the black market is pretty black as in cheating people. But right now im nuvigil 250mg ... im having problems with absorbation and its like when I take it nothing... nothing at all... and its vary frustrating because now im going to have to find medications to but under the tongue to absorb. But when I have used methamphetamine it mainly is to get that sense of power and feeling in control of the situation. When im not on it, i feel hopeless and do nothing...but this is the only way I can feel this way, people always will say go to rehab...i've been in so many f*ck*ng rehabs and did the same thing over again, its waste of money, I hate hearing the same sh*t over again. The reason I do this is 1 to get a sense of power and feel in control, 2nd it speeds up my speech and I don't feel like a mute that doesnt talk to anyone...i will talk alot on methamphetamine. Anyway...the diffrence between m-amphetamine and plain amphetamine...methamphetamine I've noticed will cause people to do the same thing over again, repetative tasks...they will sit for hours on something like cleaning something, writing poems or washing their hands over again, tedious tasks that I hate doing when I'm sober... plain amphetamine is just activating but it does not really cause this "hyperfocus" its a little more weak...but it does give attention and motivation to get things done. Meth...usally will cause paranoia too and will make some people basically crazy for a couple hours.
But back to the point, the main reason I have used it is because of the benecial effects it has similar to stimuants, it is diffrent...than adderall, less anxiety...more hyperfocus and stronger psychogical effects and deterined to get something done. You feel like a person in power...but still I can't do this even if I go back to school for a career, meth makes my lips get vary red and I constantly have to put loads of chapstick on every hour to keep it from getting over chapped, it usally makes me lose weight fast vary fast, my facial features will change and I will lose my chunky face. But still I can't do this, i've got to just deal with the arrogant dictatior doctor I have and we'll have to figure something out....anyways until then..thank you babble for listening.
I am not a scholar but I do understand distress.
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