Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on May 2, 2012, at 18:00:38
In reply to Re: link, posted by linkadge on May 2, 2012, at 16:17:23
Well I do ... have a problem but its not .. a serious everyday thing, its only used once and while to get me back to functioning normally, and being able to have a deeper intellict for a temporary period of time. I have been accussed many times of things that where not exactly the case, yet I do admit that I am an addict from all the desperation of times that I have had abuse of substances. I do it either to find relief from current situation or to enhance my mental motivation to study, and do things I would not normally do like clean, talk much faster and better, and feel content with myself. You know? My usage in the past and present are usally stimulants and then having to have something to calm down after they where off, I've already tried Cannabis, it makes me derealized and I have to lock myself up away from people because I am not with reality and I freak out. In the past I was precribed various benzos for both anxiety and for sleep that would use for treatment of the insomnia..
So...its vary hard working with a doctor that constantly thinks about the abuse potential of any med, I admit I do have big tendency to take more and take pills through out the day, and I admit that is my problem...im not content of who I am so that's why I mask the problems with subsitutes and crutches and right now I have no crutches...so I have deal with this misery 24/7, and that's why I have gotten envolved in getting spiritual help.
Anyways, thanks link. It's hard to not be irritated when I see other people do this kinda buisness like its part of thier lives go to parties and their pills being passed around like its beer and they get away with it. Anyways...see ya around