Posted by b2chica on April 25, 2012, at 14:50:32
i make vailed attempts at passersby but my mouth cant even make a smile without getting shaky like i haven't used those muscles in a year.
since starting back on zyprexa ive had about equal time good and bad, with feeling worst about 11-5 or 7 at night. best in the morning.
i started menses today and i think it has dropped me Terribly low.
cant concentrate at work and i'm under deadline that i feel is piling up by the second.
my memory s#cks.
feeling gray and tingly in my mind.
i'm sure its due to menses, however i also stopped taking my perphenazine. Even though it was so little should i have continued to take it? was it somehow helping with depression too? i was placed on it for anxiety thats why low dose (2mg am and 4mg pm).
i just want to curl up in bed and stare at the wall. i might call in sick tomorrow... i dont know that i'm any good here.
PS i am NOT upping zyprexa to 10. i've already gained 15lbs but now able to control appetite better and i can get up to exercise. if i go to 10 my appetite increases AND i wont beable to wake up in the morning.
so please dont suggest that....please.
"What is madness, but nobility of soul at odds with circumstance.
The day is on Fire, and i know the purity of pure despair."