Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on March 24, 2012, at 23:22:17
Hello Babble
It's been a couple of weeks since i've been on. I am doing ok but there are some issus that have came that are conflicting with me functioning well. I have been using methamphetamine occassially, I mean the first time I did it in litterly 6 years ago. The people that sold it to me manipulate and are abusive. I'm not using anymore but that was what happened for a couple of weeks was I ingested and smoked methamphetamine and I admit I did feel alot better. But really its too expensive and the ways people give it to you is nasty. That little bag of tiny clear crystals litterly sucks you into a bad place. But that really isnt an issue anymore becaue I know that I am tired of doing already, staying up for days and makes your lips crack and look lie you have lipstick on because of the redness. I am sick of being cheated and lied to all over a bunch of stuff that really I should not even have in my life.
Anyways I am these medcations currently:
Nuvigil 250mg
Prozac 60mg
Zyprexa 20mg
Lamictal 50mg
Clonodine.1mg X 3 dailyI have realized that most of my problems I am havng is that I feel that I'm 10 years behind socially, intelligently and doing things that require sustained mental effort I lack much in. If you ever have a conversation with me you will eventually realize that I am like talking to a kid because my thoughts are vary disorganized and I spiral off and talk about things that have nothing to relate to the original topic of the conversation. I already have written my doctor a letter about this because seriously I feel I have a deveiopment issue and im behind in many things that other people have already achieved. It takes me longer to process infomation and many time I feel humilated even when there are no people around.
I really don't want to waste your time. I have done this before here, and I do not have any intention of stealing your time. I seriously have been doing this process for years now. I have tried so hard to achieve thngs that I wanted and then the results just give a hint that im on the road to doom.
I will be back soon. I dont know when I will be back but I will read the responses to this.
Matt
poster:rjlockhart04-08
thread:1013887
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