Posted by papillon2 on January 30, 2012, at 18:02:31
In reply to Re: Lithium's Safety Evaluated Safer Than Thought, posted by raisinb on January 28, 2012, at 21:09:20
> I have heard of hypnagogic hallucinations--sometimes I get the auditory kind. I read on Wikipedia that they are actually fairly common. Still a scary, scary experience.
> But the side effects were more than enough to worry about the Lithium before your hallucination.
> From all the studies I read about Lithium, it ought to be the perfect drug for me--I have bipolar II, depressed--that is, until I actually take it. Worst side effects I've ever had from anything.
Yeah, you're right. I just... I really wanted Lithium to work, you know? I can tell you know. It took me ages to garner up the courage to try it, and that was only because I was in hospital (4 months!) with three docs wanting to give me ECT and they said if I couldn't make a decision - augment with Lithium or ECT or both - then they would have me declared legally unfit and they'd make the decision for me.
I hate anti-psychotics, they make me feel worse. All the fat meds make me feel worse, too much anxiety. I don't want ECT messing with my brain, I've already lost my brain to depression as it is. And all the meds just keep getting worse and worse and more and more intolerable.
Sh*t, everything is freaking hopeless.
Ring the bells that still can ring
forget your perfect offering
there is a crack in everything
that's how the light gets in
~ Leonard Cohen