Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on August 17, 2011, at 19:58:49
In reply to Re: Doctor Shopping, posted by Christ_empowered on August 17, 2011, at 18:12:38
you saved my life. Alot of people on these boards have mixed feelings about me. THANK SO MUCH for your advice. At this point I'm really feeling everything is doomed exepct if I get my own place from my own money which if my parents found out I was taking stimulants they would take the car away. Yes, its crazy but its who they are.
This is what much of life ended when I was taken off them. I can't even take care of myself fairly. I have resorted to food and alcohol which ACTAULLY got me in NA. So I go very long periods without alcohol or food but eventaully I will go back to it because the craving will drive me up the wall. I really feel i've done something horrible by wasting my life with all the horrile choices I made. This is what I see what would happen if I found a doctor that would prescibe adderall. I would abuse it but I would steadly learn to take it correctly. Have you seen that movie Limitness?? about that substance he finds and it makes everything much better then when he dosent have it its almost close to death because of withdrawls he has. So at the end of the movie he makes a choice to take this substance with caution and move on with his life. That's exactly what I would do. I'm not a dumb addict. I know drugs will kill you if you take them carelessly. There was someone on these boards name Amie Sans Vie that took amphatamines, barbiturates, benzos and who knows what else. He got a doctor to prescribe him all these narcotics and he died. It's just too much to take when you put that in your body. That's something I would not do. I know combinations lead to death especailly with alcohol.
I really want to ask this board to understand and tell me what I should do. What to say to the doctor. I've lived like an animal for these past months. I get out of bed. I cry. I dont feel like taking the time to groome myself and make myself look clean cut like I used to when I was on stimulants. I've lost all motivation to live.
poster:rjlockhart04-08
thread:994124
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20110809/msgs/994153.html