Posted by floatingbridge on May 5, 2011, at 15:57:01
In reply to Re: What Do You Think Of This Idea?, posted by poser938 on May 5, 2011, at 15:17:36
Poser, I was thinking about your posts and this thread in particular along with all sorts of random thoughts of my own.
Thinking about a treatment strategy that includes medication if that is your choice, (it should always be a personal choice imo), and other elements as well.
You still have neuroplasticity. I happen to believe studies that suggest this. So what can you do? I know you are in an awful fix right now, the intensity of which I don't feel I underestimate.
What can we do to promote brain and nerve health?
What can you do for yourself in your unique situation?
I like that you can see a trajectory of your condition. Teen within normal spectrum of distress medicated with unfortunate results. You presented symptoms of ADD or ADHD plus stuff I didn't pick up on. But you can see your beginning in context. Do you think therapy alone would have helped? (I ask
because of the regret read into your posts. And the anger.) Whether therapy helped then, wasn't tried, whatever, it could help now. If it isn't helping a bit right now, could you have a more helpful therapist. Could you work your therapy more effectively?
Treating the depression you experience now sounds like some solid advice. Through meds, therapy, and/or ? Even if therapy helps move through regret of mistakes made by you, doctors, well or not so well-intentioned or lucid others (quaintly known as family, school, parental units).
There is a real value, to me at least, in being able to form a coherent narrative of events that one can live with. (I'm still
working on mine.) Positive decisions, including positive risk-taking are more easily made. Like thinking about trying Risperdal, for instance. Get as much facts and info. Information includes you
and your observations, satisfactory discussions with your providers (that can include their narrative of your treatment), and insight and connection to friends or family, even if that has dwindled for the time being.
Facts are, well, facts--but facts are debatable, right? And part of the debate is the contents of that beautiful and scary black box called the human brain.
I hope this reads alright to you, and I certainly hope you know that somehow you are alright or going to be alright, and judging by the responses to your threads, people care about you, and you are worth caring for.
My 2¢ today from a gal that remembers when candy was sold two for a penny.
take very good care, and forgive the lecture; it's partly a genetic feature methinks.
*a rose by any name