Posted by mtdewcmu on April 10, 2011, at 11:27:33
In reply to Re: short question re: AP's + rispedal » hyperfocus, posted by floatingbridge on April 10, 2011, at 1:09:47
> Sometimes, I just get very, very worked up inside, like tangled and confused and convinced I am in a very special category
> of 'bad'. Singled out for punishment, cast out by God, creation, everything my fault, the ptsd my fault because in the words of Cormac McCarthy 'what's wrong with [me] is wrong all the way
> through me.' Just the wind could knock me over. Your basic intense self-loathing. In addition, when I can't sleep, I panic, and I believe sleep is the only
> way to truly stop the psychic pain.
That sounds like a shame attack. I get those sometimes when I am unexpectedly criticized. John Bradshaw has done some good work on shame, but I can't get myself to read any of his books the whole way through.