Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on January 5, 2011, at 0:10:41
Lately i've been ... very depressed, the prozac I take blocks me from crying. When I drink, that's when i can cry and get some tears going because it makes me feel so depressed I can't bear to live anymore. I used to take narcotics alot to help with depression but there not here anymore, the doctor sent me away to rehab and now im stuck with a addiction specialist that doesnt do anything. So I need to stop and think for a moment what a sh*tty life I have, but I'm not going to end it because I have a terrible fear that I may not like the after life. So I think I'll just stay here in this boat called life, and try to find someway to enjoy it, who knows whats going on in the after life....sunshine and joy...or fire and brimestone, I don't want to find out until my body my mind/ my soul is ready to go, live long and prosper.
Ugh, their will be better days. But believe in the lord and he will be your comfort.
Matt
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