Posted by SLS on October 19, 2010, at 1:49:13
In reply to Re: Thinking of coming off meds » SLS, posted by Maxime on October 18, 2010, at 20:53:42
> > Or very horrifying. Most of my cerebral cortex was hypofunctional as was indicated by the color blue on repeated PET scans. This compares with healthy individuals whose brains shows up globally yellow and orange except for the ventricles. It was a horrendous finding to see how globally my brain function is affected by depression. It was not so pleasant a revelation that the U.S. NIH considered me to be "very sick".
> > - Scott
> Scott, I am sure that it was distressing to find out about your brain function. I am really sorry about that. But at the same time did it not give you satisfaction? Proof that you are ill. I always have people doubting how sick I am and then I begin to doubt it myself. But with the scan you have proof. Or maybe you don't need that kind of validation. *hugs*
There are people on Internet group forums for the mentally ill whom still don't validate me or that major depressive disorder and bipolar disorder are biological disorders of the CNS. There is even a recalcitrance along this thread to internalize the facts as scientists have come to know them in the 28 years since I was first diagnosed and treated. There is a lack of agreement in only the details, but not of the phenomenon. For some, brain function changes through psychotherapy. It can help remove chronic biological stresses on the brain. This easing of "depressive pressure" might yield the same result as somatic treatments for subgroups of depressives. However, I am not one of them.
I think that having been treated at some of the most highly accredited research facilities gave me the opportunity to watch the field of psychiatry evolve and be exposed to the most current trends in discovery and scientific thought.
How do I know that my affective disorder is biological? Got 28 years for an explanation?
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The measure of success lies only in how high one feels he must
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